..when the mind ceases to think..

...some organized incoherence.

Friday, June 19, 2009


Let's synthesize all we can't have and claim that we do
We know they can't tell, we'll pretend neither can you
We play a zero-sum game, you and I
Except I refuse to lose, and you refuse to die
So let's silence me and give contentment a chance
And take a breath out of this pernicious trance
Let's casually sincerely thank god for our next breath
Even if we stay guilt stricken for them all till death

Monday, June 15, 2009


Don't you just love the teenagers who bash the heart with every cliché they can come across just to be different? Say hello to the 18 year old me. Have a good laugh.

And I don't seem to understand
Why I still hang onto this thin strand
Of hope that merely drowns me deeper
In this sea that leads me nowhere

I'm drowning...I'm breaking...
Falling from the blood drenched cloud nine
I'm bleeding just to see you alive

I'm fighting a fight I know I've lost
Thrown behind the lines I once crossed
I'm fading in the mist of the morning
I'm drowning in the rainy tears of heaven
Sinking in the deep placid sea
I bleed for you and me

And I'm falling...and I'm hurting...
Fading away into lost memories...
Losing myself in my surreal dreams

And I can't seem to accept this end
I'm broken but I still pretend
Clinging onto my recurring dream
Where you reach out just to leave me

Now I've fallen and I am broken
There's no more hurting, no more bleeding
I see some hope, and within you remain
Once I'm dead, you'll be close again

You're too far...you're too far...